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Monday, March 19, 2012

It's okay to cry!

So it's been a little over a week since we got the news if the cancer that has invaded my husbands body and well let's just say I really haven't had a chance by myself to just cry. Since I got the news I have been strong, because that's what I am supposed to do, right? I mean if I become weak, will my husband and will our son sense it? I don't know but I finally just laid in bed Friday night and just cried while the hubby love was at work and my son was snoozing so peacefully. Tears just began to roll down my face and I got this horrible feeling in my throat I can't explain but they wouldn't stop...the tears just kept on. It finally felt so good, to finally be weak for a moment and I just wiped the tears from my face and told myself its okay to cry. In fact, damn it I needed this cry.  I have been tough and I will continue to be but its so hard. It truly is. It's my Family, little family of three that is what will get us through this. Although I have been researching this rare cancer and things don't look so good but we won't give up and I am so sure the tears will continue and it is okay.  Friday coming up we have a meeting with his doctor to discuss process and answer questions along with meeting with the Chief Surgeon at MD Anderson to discuss surgery. It will be a tough day I am sure as we find out more information on this ugly thing. Please pray for my family. I need my husband and Talan needs his daddy around for a really long time. Thank you all.


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7 comments:

Brooke LaBouve said...

Praying for you guys!!

ChelseaSalomone said...

Brandy how did I miss this news?!?!?! I just went back and reread .... I have no idea how I missed those posts.

If you ever want to talk I am here. I will be happy to give you my phone #, email, whatever you need. I have been in your shoes as you know, and it's NOT easy!!!!! But you are his rock and it does help him if you stay positive. But you need an outlet too! And sometimes, it's ok to be weak together. It is so hard and so unfair and I'm so sad you're dealing with this! Believe it or not, right now is one of the very hardest parts... Dealing with the shock, the unknown... That part will get better soon. Just keep going, take things day by day, hour by hour if you need to. Just focus on pressing through to the next thing.

ChelseaSalomone said...

I got cut off... Anyway. I am glad you are allowing yourself to deal with the emotions. HUGS & PRAYERS!!!!

Mrs. Brandy De La Cruz said...

Thank you for the prayers Brooke and Chelsea that would be great to have your email! It's such a different feeling just hearing your husband, your best Friend, the one you chose to spend the rest of your life with has cancer. I am trying to find the strength for my whole family and I'm sure ill get there. It's just so scary. Again thank you. Hugs back and even a tighter one.

Casey said...

praying for yall. i hate yall are going thru this. let us know if you need anything!

Megan C said...

Continuing to pray for you guys. So sorry you have to go through this. God Bless!

ChelseaSalomone said...

Checking back on you. You've been on my mind all evening. How are things? How are you? My email address is chelseasalomone05@gmail.com

Friend.. I remember those feelings all too well. So so hard! I'm saying a prayer for you right now.

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