So it's been a little over a week since we got the news if the cancer that has invaded my husbands body and well let's just say I really haven't had a chance by myself to just cry. Since I got the news I have been strong, because that's what I am supposed to do, right? I mean if I become weak, will my husband and will our son sense it? I don't know but I finally just laid in bed Friday night and just cried while the hubby love was at work and my son was snoozing so peacefully. Tears just began to roll down my face and I got this horrible feeling in my throat I can't explain but they wouldn't stop...the tears just kept on. It finally felt so good, to finally be weak for a moment and I just wiped the tears from my face and told myself its okay to cry. In fact, damn it I needed this cry. I have been tough and I will continue to be but its so hard. It truly is. It's my Family, little family of three that is what will get us through this. Although I have been researching this rare cancer and things don't look so good but we won't give up and I am so sure the tears will continue and it is okay. Friday coming up we have a meeting with his doctor to discuss process and answer questions along with meeting with the Chief Surgeon at MD Anderson to discuss surgery. It will be a tough day I am sure as we find out more information on this ugly thing. Please pray for my family. I need my husband and Talan needs his daddy around for a really long time. Thank you all.
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